Jr BAkA

2011-02-26T02:53:00.003+08:00

its been some time since i've blogged. and since i've ORD. i guess i'll be having more time to blog.. (: well, i got suspended in Aion. for 3 days.. lol. time to get some fresh air! (: mm.. i don't know why i've been so sad lately. is it because i'm getting too much time to spare, that i think of you more often? :/ Hi. I would like to know you better. JR. -> Ding. ^^ again again again!

2011-01-21T07:58:00.002+08:00

Wao. If I told you I fucked up. Would you believe me? If I told you I regretted it. Would you forgive me? If I told you I missed you badly. Would you give me another chance? I saw you again. In my dreams. Fuck. It's so real. I met you at the mrt station this time. This time I felt you were back for me.. You were ready to accept me. You looked for me. Although I wasn't 100% sure I didn't care. I asked you whether I could patch things up with you. You said great! HAHA. What. A. Dream! We had so much to catch up. Why do I need to wake up for my first parade?? -,- lol. Nevermind that. At the very least I got to see you again. Gee. I when I woke up I was like. FUCK! It was just a dream???? LMAO. Don't be so evil! Just come back to me again. ):

2011-01-16T00:37:00.002+08:00

haha. 27 more days. its really getting exciting. :/ though. i lost you during my NS life.

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Shui jiao de da ti qin
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
Ni mei you she bu de
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
Wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

MISS YOU. D'8

2011-01-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

when i first saw you.. with the guitar on the stage. and the star-shirt. you're were stunning. i almost fell in love immediately. in my mind, i was like "who's this girl". it got to be you. fun joy love soon followed as i got closer to you. you were the one who affected me the most in my life. without you, i still wouldn't understand what is love. and how to love someone. maybe it's because you're the first girl whom i truly loved. that i felt so unbearable now.. to see you away. from me. its a new year. another year. without you.

2011-01-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

Do you know how cruel you were. Leaving me alone like this. ): so much for all the promises. The feeling of emptiness, not having you by my side, is simply killing me.. I miss you ding. ): sigh. But what was written down can't be changed. When you're gone....... Haha. This song. Mm.. I'm slowly losing images of you.. Not being able to see the faces of you anymore.. Whenever I think of you.. There's this empty portray of you.. How do you look like now? :/ gosh. Too much ranting. Sklendjdoemndjspwwpdkke. I should be thankful for having you once. But I'm a greedy person you see.. (: all the best to you for this new year. Love badly, Jr.

2010-12-17T01:13:00.002+08:00

finally i've finished my atec2. it's coming to an end. lol.. (: 55moredays. waos. (: watched rapunzel today.. and. its rather an interesting one.. very nice storyline i have to say.. and its the first time i'm watching it with a girl alone in 2 years. :/ that silhouette of you beside me. totally reminds me. of her. and it's so comfortable. the feeling is so nostalgic. i felt that you really were. your short hair. your nice shampoo smell. everything was there. but i just couldn't reach over to hold you. i tried to hold back my tears. of regret. and pity. thanks for accompanying me to watch the show. somehow i feel something different about you.. that somewhat you don't treat me just like a friend.. lol. :/ :O

2010-11-30T01:23:00.002+08:00

Today will be the most blissful day of my life. Although i woke up quite disappointed, it was nevertheless, the best dream ever.. I could recall my dream with so much detail, mostly because it was attached with some of my greatest emotions- the feeling of being loved by the one i truly love, the most. The feeling i had, was indescribable, only able to simplify, but not able to portray the true depth of it. Until now, the hard fact still coldly whisper inside of me, but i didn't know what reason triggered this dream. It's your character, because of exactly how you would behave. It's all happening in my dream. You, are the one, i met in the lift, with some slight change in your features, for the better of course, came pushing yourself towards my arms because of the crowd, not knowing its me. Me either. Until i got a glimpse of you, was i able to beg to have one last meal before this parting. You reluctantly agreed. I wrote something to you on a card. It goes like this: i had once dreamed of you, reconciling, and reconciled. But after waking up, i felt utterly miserable. The fact that i had to face the 2nd breakup, yet again, was- yes, a joke. Words mean totally nothing unless it is carried out. I want to make you the happiest girl in this world, again. I'll never be what i was, i'm a changed man now.. If you want to try it out, i mean a new relationship with me, call me before xxxxday. I forgot what day it was actually. But you did call and invited me to your house. I somewhat came into your 'house' before, probably because of my previous dreams. We had sweet exchanges, i helped you out in your housework and everything was working out way better than before. You were more opened up to me. You asked me for a massage after a long day's work. I felt your bony back once again. And this time, another of my senses reconfirmed your identity. Your smooth skin, petite frame and curved backbone, totally makes you feel real. I'm really grateful for this wonderful dream. I miss you. ding. This is what i wrote during my last dawn of outfield. Gee. It was rather. Long. LMAO.

Ok, more on what i did during the weekends. I had bought. my Gran Turismo 5. TADA. and guess what. I couldn't resist getting the G27. ALL THANKS TO CLEMENT CHUA. -,- Now i'm in debt again. LMAO. like always. GT5 is really fun. realistic. sophisticated. and enjoyable. (: spent almost the whole day just playing GT5.

Well. its 72days before i ORD. and i can't stop thinking what will happen to me in the future. i want you back. ding. BUT you're in AUSTRALIA. Brilliant.! (: FML seriously. LOLOLOL.

2010-11-01T09:36:00.002+08:00

Gee. Since a long time I blog. Mm. Haven't been very free I guess. And finally.. It's 100 days before I ord! (: haha.. Live continues after that. Only if you're still here. :/ ding ding ding! I fucking miss you alright. I could wake up in tears in the morning, because I was so happy to found you in my dream, only to realize it was just a dream.. LMAO. but dreams are getting much less frequent.. Guess I'm slowly getting over you. But can't entirely, wtf. Sigh. Going to take part in dota compy. Hopefully we'll make out to top 5. :D hoho. Nappy time! I love ding. And hope you'll find mr in my dreams again! Laters!

2010-08-16T16:55:00.002+08:00

starcraft 2 addiction. ): lol. its in the midst of YOG. finally finished the opening of YOG ceremony. but. 1 more. ending i guess.. haha.. had quite a few friends during YOG. cool dudes. (: went to neverland yesterday.. lol. cool people. and finally saw terrence tipsy. BUT NOT YET DRUNK. -.- lols. anyway. GOLD LEAGUE FOR STARCRAFT 2. haha. like. finally. (: and............ hope you're fine. ding. (: oh. it reminds me. of a7x natural born killer. got to love that.

2010-07-26T17:54:00.002+08:00

hi. been a long time since i blogged. lol. :/ anyway.. nothing much happened during the past few weeks. went abit of a clubbing. had lots of YOG. which MAY. be a good thing. besides the money issue. because everywhere i go for lunch. is just restaurants and more restaurants lol. and i want to try pariss. it looks pretty awesome (: oh yea. i can't wait for starcraft 2 and nightmare to come out! too bad i can't head to funnan tomorrow to collect all the freebies and my sc2! :/ lol. and. 6 months and 15 days. to ORD. (:

2010-07-12T02:13:00.003+08:00

wow. long time since i had field camp. lol. i think my life is screwed by the army. joke.. anyway.. 1 more lesson to finish my syllabus for driving.. then comes the test. hope i can pass. lol (: ohhh. how's your aussie studies? :/ LOL. i am so tired. lucky me. i get to go back on wednesday.. (: 7 MONTHS TO ORD. WOOTS.

2010-06-25T09:58:00.002+08:00

It's a very rainy day now.. And I'm sleeping in my bunk.. I had this very magnificent dream. Super sweet. Super nice. And I think it's definitely one of the best dreams I've ever had.. (: but shit. I can't really remember what happened. But when i woke up. It was like. "happily ever after" I was feeling refreshed. A little light-headed and very nice. (: ahhah. But I had a slight sprain on my ankle.. Guess i wasn't sleeping properly.. It happens like this.. I don't know why but everything felt super real.. Lol.. I really thought it was happening.. Haha.. Somehow. I managed to see her somewhere.. And we were holding hands and walking around....... Jurong I guess.. Because I happen to chance upon my classmate. Who lives near there.. Haha.. And I put a "peace sign", flaunting that I've won half the battle. Actually I felt that it was almost I won over her heart already.. Haha.. Ran up and chased her..... Said some sweet stuff.. Exchanges stares.. Shared the little things that we lost when we weren't together.. And then we were walking to somewhere. I don't know where lol.. And with someone.. She seemed sweet. Holding my palm tightly as we walked.. And smiling sweetly at me.. Omg. That beaming smile.. ^^ haha.. And...... Then. We went to a small shop.. There were some drunkards. While walking through them.. They tried to touch her.. I got super mad and fought back. In the midst of doing that, I accidently hurt her hand.. And she got skeptical about my changes. And thought I wasn't really true.. Weird dream but.. I managed to patched it back up, by her final request.. "finish up the beancurd swallowing it. Whole." she gave me 1 day.. But I took less than 10 seconds lol.. I told you it's weird.. But it's the best dream since i had the best ending.. (: where exactly in Australia is she now.. ): kind of miss you badly now.. Gee.. That feeling doesn't go away does it? :/

2010-06-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

ohhhh my tian. a7x's nightmare is so good. and there. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1g90I_V5_g another talent. cover by alex. no tabs, all by ear. what a gay. :O HERE'S A FUCKING NIGHTMARE FOR YOU. (: ASYOURNIGHTMARECOMESTOLIFE. so did mine. NIGHTMARE..................

2010-06-05T22:55:00.001+08:00

lol. are you serious?. like 3 more days and. BOO. you're *puffs* gone. lollssssss. LOL. Lollsss. ): ok hope i'll be able to see you somewhere soon. anywhere in the world. (: EARTH IS SO SMALL.

2010-05-28T01:44:00.003+08:00

lol. what a joke. (: 080610. lol.. why. i simply don't understand it at all.. maybe i shouldn't.. oh man.. i really don't know.. 7 years. is my life a curse? a joke? or. what? lOl. OLO LoL. this is driving me nuts. i told you i wanted to go to australia to study.. but scared that if i pursue my studies it'd be hard to maintain our relationship.. you asked me to go. that wasn't quite an answer i wanted to hear.. lol.. nevermind.. and then. you went. instead. LOL. you know how much. i love you? lol. shit man. you're a weirdo which sucks me in so much into you. it's a curse. go find your happiness.. stay happy. after seeing so much. i really don't suit you at all.. i read you just like how i read chinese. i don't understand you well.. i think too much. too much of my bizarre thoughts have taken over me. BYE BYE DING. (: 080610. what happens in 080616? or. can 040610 save it? LOL. DREAM DREAM DREAM.

on.

2010-05-03T13:18:00.002+08:00

i just found out that she's going overseas to study for 7 years. lol. 7 years. (: Australia... 7 years. aoihnfrhafnleafnself. my life is really like. a drama joke.. (: well, i met her brother downstairs.. lol.. weird. i wanted to see you so much.. jon told me to go up and pass the present to her personally.. i wasn't prepared to do so. its 1 year full of shit. i don't know what to do when i see you. you wouldn't want to see me either. maybe just shut out cold on me and take whatever i have to say and go back into your room *locks*. something like that would happen.. lol.. so i better not.. i seriously. wanted to go back. time. like what did i do wrong? i've changed? how much.. wasn't i like that.. lol.. speaking of that.. maybe i did.. everything was wrong to begin with.. i thought i was my true self when being with you.. but 70% of me was made by you.. you made me nice. you made me sweet.. maybe all the envy and time made me became more me. me? lol. what is me. i'm seriously screwed up. so much questions. no answers. would you even say thanks for the present? lol.. i took almost a full day without sleeping to do it.. :/ i'm sorry for wasting your 11 months and 4 days with me.. lol. but it certainly was a joy. and full of sweetness for me (: i love you. and its time i should let it go. i think i've said it the umpteen times. but, yea.. lol.. just hope you would find happiness in whatever you do.. fuck you jr. maybe you're just a bastard. (: at least tell me why.

2010-05-01T02:16:00.003+08:00

lol.. finally after the weeks of fun. its the end.. the guys are coming back from Taiwan.. :/ i'm ok with that.. not really, actually.. army is so slack without them.. lol.. your birthday is coming.. 090590. next Sunday.. i actually got you a gift.. and. its not done yet.. i need to piece this puzzle together.. 500 pieces! its the first time i fix such a big set. i don't know whether its possible. hopefully i can rush it on time.. i got the edges already.. at least something to begin with.. (: i guess i'll just put it outside your door.. :/ or maybe ask your brother to pass it to you.. either way, i won't get to see you.. (: and. hope you like it..

2010-04-25T01:47:00.003+08:00

actually.. i just finished my 2 weeks stay. lol.. i've done all my guard duty.. means no more guard duty till the come back from taiwan.. (: lol. its slack slack slack and slack in camp.. played poker. drank lots and lots of alcohol. mmmm.... what a lousy life.. lol. got driving tomorrow.. don't want to stay up to late. (:

2010-04-03T01:23:00.003+08:00

lol. spent almost whole day playing computer. + ps3. dota + final fantasy 13. lol.. still filing off all the rust on my fingers. + final fantasy is godlike. best final fantasy graphics ever. period. mm.. went out to eat with my family.. lol.. its like the always same old 3 of us. my brother's never here.. used to it already.. haha.. oh. i'm learning how to play unholy confessions faster. but. it sounds like shit when i play it fast. because i couldn't play it properly!! HAHA. need more time though.. tomorrow's my driving shit. what a waste of time.. lol.. what to do.. i need a driving license ok! ga. ga. ga. i look at my nick. Jr BAkA. a spade. and a pearl. ring. wow. lol.. now.... where did i put it.. shit. gota go find it.! (:

2010-04-02T03:13:00.002+08:00

its been a short week in army.. lol.. life is starting to change. abit. LOL. i am getting more lost.. i don't really know what i want now.. i thought that i had forgotten you.. but i dreamt of you almost everyday this week. what. the. fuck? lol.. such a weird phenomenon.. hehe.. Pearlyn Ding Tze Ling. that was an individual group that i used to put you on my msn.. most top of my list. you're there.. i would appear offline and go online when you arrive. LOL.. and people always scold me.. ehh. "why you always both come online at the same time ah?" haha.. ok i shall stop thinking so much.. i look backed at your videos. of us gaming together.. heh.. i somewhat found the problem between us.. i could almost sense it coming.. a premonition. that something.. really bad is wrong.. even if i tried to amend it.. it was too late.. even from the start.. i'm sorry. it was me. who shouldn't have gotten to know you.. then maybe. it'll be so much better for both of us.. (: NOT! lol. how could i be considered. living the life of JR. if you hadn't come into my story.. (: hehe. you were AWESOME. ! anyway. i think i'm crazy. TOO MUCH FINAL FANTASY 13 i guess.. bringing up all the lovey dovey cutscenes.. which reminds. me. of you the most.. snow and serah.. i'm sure. my love for you at that moment. would never be lesser. than what he would express. STOP. sleep time. and. i finally got my guitar cable.. z forgot to bring it back from camp.. i need to do my strings before i sleep.

2010-03-27T01:15:00.002+08:00

heh.. this week.. passed rather quick i would say.. lol.. maybe its the icct course i'm attending which is so farr---- yet so near from my home. lol.. the food there. is. lol.. chicken. baked tomatooesss. soup. soup. soup. + spring onion sliced fish. wow. :O anyway.. i started abit of ff13 today.. still stuck in chapter 05 though :/ mm.. and i want to buy a brand new psp.. i think it isnt worth it to repair my old one.. lol.. the umd back cover is coming off loose already.. mm.. you weren't online today.. fuck. a cockroach just went under my feet. ONSDONEOFN. zzz. it was. bloody gross. didn't managed to kill it but at least chased it away.. lol.. ewwww. gah. i'm going to sleep now.. there's driving tomorrow! :/

2010-03-21T19:51:00.002+08:00

heh.. watched Nodame Catabile on Friday night.. lol.. hope it lightened your mood.. (: well.. its definitely sweet to see you again.. after a horrible 2 weeks. lol.. but.. don't know why after meeting up on Friday you seem. weird.. lol.. yea. maybe i'm reading too much.. hoho.. i got 4 shirts! from SPADES. yes.. AceOfSpades shirts.. that's me alright.. (: gah.. its booking back into camp again.. hey.. get well soon alright.. and.. i want to own a Lamborghini Murciélago. LOL.. just being naive. (:

2010-03-13T15:49:00.003+08:00

mm.. what should i say?.. this week is tough.. lol.. its weird.. if not been thinking of you the entire week.. mm...... lol.. i feel.. lighter.. (: anyway.. i did a 13km fast march. WDKFIEDOKFNJSF. it wasn't that good.. the load is insane.. >20kg load. and it was close to running.. -.- then an hour parade.. wtf?! i couldn't even stand still for a minute.. !! that all suck.. haha.. alot of things is going on this week.. i need to clarify my feelings.. hopefully it stays that way.. AND. the finale.. FINAL FANTASY IS FINALLY OUT. i couldn't couldn't couldn't wait to get home to touch the game.. i'm into 2 hours of the game.. but still stuck in chapter 2-.- due to all the lengthy story lines.. i made the effort to read my datalog.. haha.. haven't really touch on my guidebook yet.. but.. it's definitely worth $36. the art cover is. awesome.. (: i'm going to IT fair in suntec later in the evening to check out some things.. lol. guess an IT guy like me couldn't just sit at home playing ff13 the entire day without visiting the quarterly annual IT fair. (: for now, FF13 here i come! (:

2010-03-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

lol.ed. dreamt of you last night? lol. gee. this is how it goes.. i went online. and i saw you. you online. lol? couldn't normally be so. you evil. blocked me ): mm.. so...... i chatted with you and wow. you replied. LOL. bam. and then we became friends.. (: happy ending. NOT. then i woke up.. T.T anyway. i took driving lessons already. i'm on my 6th lesson i guess.. and i'm on stage 2 sub 3 now.. almost halfway through practical.. :D FINAL FANTASY IS OUT NEXT WEEKKKKK. OMGGGGGG. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! www.finalfantasyxiii.com !!!! (:

2010-02-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

lol. class gathering over my place.. had steamboat.. well.. poker black jack big 2. lose around 10? :/ awbuiafbef lol.. mm.. should i repair my psp? it cost around 190.. yucks.. z. drank quite abit just now.. lol.. maksim. 06 信望愛. reminds. me. of. you. again. :/ lol.. chinese new year.. how was it for you? lol.. my relatives asked about you.. lol.. what should i say? i lost the girl i loved? lol.. i'm not worthy enough. gah. why. am. i. so. lost? lol.. you can't be the only one in the world yea. i need to. stop this.. :/ but i can't.. you keep appearing before me.. ding ding ding. there goes my message tone.. :/ (:

2010-02-13T02:24:00.002+08:00

hey. i dreamt again. lol.. i wonder how often it will be.. its good.. (: damn. its chinese new year. and i don't like this without you.. lol.. guess what. i just realise that the new bus interchange has 181 and 241 beside each other. that's like mine and your buses. sure gonna bump into you one day. but.. i don't take bus rides from jp anymore.. i just walk home at pioneer. :/ wish me poker luck. and i hate festives without ding. ):

2010-02-03T02:21:00.002+08:00

lol.. i guess my short break ends here. tomorrow i'm going back to camp :/ haha. are you different? very different from me? lol.. no one is alike. i still believe i know you.. and i understand you well.. but why? lol.. GG (: sad but its life. well.. found VF. its a cool webbie. lol.. get to meet lots of cool chicks and some nice metals. woots.

2010-02-01T15:08:00.003+08:00

hey. i'm back from brunei.. 19 days. ! wow. it sucks. but it wasn't so bad actually.. not as bad as what i thought it would be.. the only outfield i went was the 3 days 4 nights.. :X but i miss home badly. my computer. and ding. ding? lol.. although we are not together.. but i still misses you alot. dreamt of you on one of the nights.. wow.. i love the presence of you.. love being together with you again.. :/ but too bad. the dream didn't last long.. i woke up. and found myself back in reality again.. gee. ): well.. you're a great great great girl.. no other girl had pulled me in so badly. only you.. ! z.

2009-12-24T18:44:00.001+08:00

its. going. to. be. a. lonely. christmas. ):

2009-12-13T03:13:00.002+08:00

just got back from the hellish outfield.. navex sucks. lol. christmas is just around the corner.. where is my ding? lols. she's gone. the magical girl. ...... is gone. ): :/ efonesrgondsrgnrkd. lol. its hard. to. breathe in the air. without your presence.. without you imbal godlike hair smell.. without you.. i still remembered.. you sending me this piece of song.. and. its my favourite. (:

My Chemical Romance - All I Want For Christmas Is You

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby

I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play

Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shining surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children's laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing oh I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me

Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you [x4]
You, you, you, you, you

): santa santa. give me back my baby ><

2009-12-06T03:25:00.002+08:00

i think i've been too busy with my games that i've blogged less :/ haha. just got myself a ps3. 9 games now. woots. mm.. and some are fun. some are not? o.o little big planet is . like. awesome. lol.. my entire room is pretty. was thinking of hooking some posters onto the wall. it'll be perfect. (: christmas is coming.. yea it is.. it'll be my 19th birthday.. i asked whether you would be free on that day. lol.. i guess not eh? (: well.. it couldn't been any worse.. guessed that things would get into this state also.. but why? i didn't cheat.. i didn't lie.. i didn't force.. i tried to make you the luckiest girl. you could ever be.. in your environment that you lived in. i thought you needed my love most. but sadly, not.. :/ i guess. christmas would be a rather. lonely. one. - without you. christmas. wouldn't be fun.. sucks to be me eh. :/

2009-11-28T03:47:00.002+08:00

its getting more field camps and more. ! csm is getting hard on those taking mc. ): i just got a ps3! bundled with little big planet and beowolf. and throwing in a hdmi cable. it cost me 518. o.O looks quite a nice deal alright. i bought other games as well from sitex. unchantered 2. assassin creed. tekken 6. gta 4. i have a collection of 9 games now (: wow yea. mm.. i asked you out on my birthday. i know you wouldn't reply. lol.. but if you were to, i'll always be ready to go out with you. especially on my birthday. o.o i be'd happy. lol.. ding. is someone. that's irreplaceable. i don't know why i'm so bias towards you.. maybe. its because you're really really. lovely. ^^ shit. you just shine too much you know.. :/ lol. ed.

2009-11-16T10:30:00.003+08:00

is it surprising? that i'm still clinging on to the past. i'm only remembering all the good times.. that's why its so hard to let go. what about the bad times? what about those difficult situations. it never ever came across me.. haha. you're really great. (:

2009-11-07T04:22:00.002+08:00

oh. ya. and i just won partial Impreza team. woots. Ks-Lemion. ftw. BAN- SF LYANNA PHANTOM LANCER STORM SPIRIT. NO farmers. ftw. (:

2009-11-07T04:19:00.002+08:00

hi. what a crappy week. i think its done. i dont want to see you anymore. nor talk to you.. your words are just like swords. yet its getting duller. i wonder why. maybe its because i've lost interest in you.. i can no longer tolerate. your diehard. bitchiness. ftw. it really sucks. to the core. change for christ sake. fuck. you. (: i dont feel anything. for. anyone.

2009-11-01T11:42:00.002+08:00

mm. went off to club yesterday at butterfac. cool costumes. hot chicks. and tons of surprises.. got this candy from the little red riding hood. lol? she looks. damn. pretty. and. hot. #$%^&* and then she disappeared. GG. haha.. got to dance around with a few girls. yummy. they are lovely.. didn't get to drink much. HOT AND STUFFY. sucks. haha.. going to take my mc later i guess.. want to catch a showww? O.o sister keepers

2009-10-26T22:42:00.003+08:00

lol? i just went cycling to your house. lol? just a sudden urge. to see the familiar surroundings once again.. haha. went jp with friends. and realized that it felt so lonely. and different. without you. :/ oh well. thought i could be lucky enough to catch a glimpse of you below your flat? lol? but. scared though. haha. GG me. (:misses.

2009-10-26T02:19:00.002+08:00

hoho. dota dota dota. fun? lol? it killed me too. didn't really get to spend time with you and stuffs. lol.. today when i wished you goodluck.. i had this nice feeling of seeing your name in my phone again. Dingding!! lol.? and. i actually thought you replied. NAH. ! wasn't you. ): lol.. anyway. i sent orange for a bathe. (: hahahhahaa. STUDY HARD OK. enough with deky and study study study lawyer girl! (:

2009-10-16T15:07:00.002+08:00

lol.. gg. it seems like. i have many things to say to you but you're not here. lol.. you won't be anymore :/ lol. i miss your reiatsu. fuck. it kills me when i'm around you. lol. why am i missing you again. ! ): maybe i'm missing the times with you when i'm doing the stuffs alone now. loled. sinking myself into games. do help alot.. but when i'm not playing my mind goes back to you again. ): boooo.!

2009-10-14T15:03:00.003+08:00

lol. i dreamt of you the other night.. it goes like this. i met you in suntec i think. along with all your friends.. murong was also there. :/ lol. gah. i didn't know the reason why. so i just give it a go. to ask you what was the real reason. we didn't spoke a single word ever since i last went out with you on 020509. ): and the last movie we watched was detroit metal city. its a imbally nice show. especially watching it with you lol. ok. then i went up to you. and asked to speak to you just for a short moment. even if that moment didn't improve anything.. i didn't mind. looking into your eyes and breathing the drugged pantene smooth and silky soaked hair smell, would be simply. wonderful. i couldn't ask for another better moment.. because losing you means so much. another moment with you would be another happiest moment of my life (: (besides the one we spent in christmas!) lol. fuck. ! anyway. you said alright.. after much hesitation i guess. peer pressure from murong and friends.. guessed you didn't want to see me on your own will.. :/ i remember feeling the same way i did a year ago. i gave my heart to you. maybe it did changed abit. :/ lol? shit. but i still have that feeling. ok. i know i shouldn't be having.. !! gosh. you won't stop. lingering. around. me. but. i enjoyed that. ^^ lol.

2009-10-10T12:04:00.002+08:00

sucks. going to do guard duty tomorrow.. lol? and going to be confined for a long time before my block leave.! woots. life sucks without you. D: but. i can't do anything about it also. how's our cookie >< orange. is wellllly taken care of dont worry! (:

2009-10-04T01:47:00.002+08:00

oh. and.. wtf man. why just can't it go away.. this girl who stands beside me in simlim this morning. i'm dead sure. she uses the same shampoo as you. pantene smooth and silky. the smell. is so evocative. it almost knocked me off the ground.. what. the. fuck. and your smile. damn. shooooooooo fuck off from me. !!!!

2009-10-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

lolness. inglorious basterds is nice. funnnny. and nice. yea. phooo. wtf wtf wtf. stop nagging please. and you. i don't know what you're trying to do. and what i'm trying to do. there isn't enough chemistry. sweet. no more problems for jr (: and fuck. i love to use smileys ok.

2009-09-26T18:36:00.002+08:00

mm..... hihi. i have 6 weeks status. damn slack? haha.. anyway i want to learn driving soon. maybe see if i have the time tomorrow.. i'm going to swensens for icecream buffet. wonder how's everyone like.. mm.. you're still showing me the other side of you. :/ what's inside of you. be nicer!

2009-09-15T13:29:00.002+08:00

mmmmm. hi there. (: haha.. going to book back in again at 6pm. so early! make time make time this weekend! i want to watch gamer. (: and... this week is my mommy's birthday. but i dont have much cash with me. ! die. :O

2009-09-13T05:26:00.002+08:00

watched 2 movies. tired siol. district 9 still ok. but ttw. is. nostalgic. lol.. at time my heart just felt heavy.. seeing both of them together so sweetly just reminds me of something.. haha. almost wanted to left the theatre. but the feeling went off rather quickly.. gee. the owl sure say i emo if i walked out like that. -.- haha. but whatever.. my parents found out i smoke. sucks.. haha. i dont want do guard duty on monday!

2009-09-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

GG. i just booked out this morning. haha.. ate at some japanese restaurant. 60 bucks of orgasm. (: nice.. <3 jap food to the max. well. went with some cool dudes and Dominic. i have guard duty later. and the past few days ATP outfield sucks.. only have less than 10 hours of sleep for the past 3 days.. ! oh. and something. talked to ding's brother.. found him as a last for dota draft.. he sucks though.. but tells me that. ding told me that she didn't want anything to do with me. wow.. it came as a shocking blow.. but. wasn't as painful as before. maybe the feelings are starting to wear off. it is a misunderstanding. i believe. but.. since things had come to such a point.. there isn't anymore reason to see a future in it.. something else is coming i guess? but i'm resisting it alot. firstly. i don't know how is it like to truly love someone again. being able to. and being able to commit as well as before. to care. to feel. to understand and to trust.. and peer pressure told me otherwise. sigh.. i shall think it through deeply! shalln't do anything else stupid. should i try. or just wait? what lies ahead? do i have time? haha.. gah. gonna bathe.. booking in later at night for guard duty.. i'll have much time for that (:

2009-09-01T12:18:00.002+08:00

its raining! :/ ah. i'm hungry.. :/ only if you were still there. then we can go eat yakun together! (: with with all the eggs and lots of black sauce.. O.o how would you not died of diabetes! haha.. and. those. red and black fingernails.. :/ mm. well..... and your smell lingering in my JJEG jacket! o.o haha.. its all over i guess. (: ding ding ding.. jiawei asked what happened. and suddenly it all started to happen again.. remembering you..

2009-08-28T21:35:00.003+08:00

yucks. lost today's match.. well. a group of 5 of us got 1xextra because of us being too rowdy while playing on monday. wow? lol.. and we totally owned the commandos. but got beaten by our own signal battalion. LOL. ! GG. but whatever it was a close match.. (: sigh. going out tomorrow to watch fd4! and maybe sunday to makan? haha.. well........ bring more money i suppose. she's broke. ! damn. ding. ding. ding. why won't you eat with me? ): :/ !!!!! hoho. ho. Jr says hi. (:

2009-08-23T04:25:00.003+08:00

back from army yet again.. i got my nds confiscated while playing during office hours :X can't stop playing pokemon! LOL :/ army kinda slack for this week yea.. gamed at friday and taking part in a compy next monday.. o.o mm. kinda getting use to the army life already.. things getting duller.. ! wonder how you're doing again :X issit that hard to let go? :/ ding ah! you're too strong to resist. ): gah. ! try harder i shall! days we spent together brought back wonderful memories. i swear it's the happiest days in my life. till now! (: you're that great. !!

2009-08-17T10:16:00.002+08:00

haha.. wow. yesterday's 10click run was. monstrous! OMG.. mm.. thought about us alot. i think its no point brooding over it.. we should just. get on ahead with our lives.. (: lol. can i? :/ i hope i better be.. haha. please stay in my memories.. (: i loved the ding when she was 17. (:

2009-08-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

wow. so many things happened this week.. mm. alright. army was.. alright.. dont know how to put it also.. because it began not to bother me so much.. although outfield still sucks.. putting army stuff aside.. :/ sigh. wonder how're you doing man. it feels like you're a complete stranger now to me. haha.. i cannot try anymore.. i cannot attempt. i cannot leave it just as it is.. you're really gone.. haha and somehow i feel its going away.. is it good? :/ but still. whenever i hear your name.. there's always this sinking feeling in my heart.. and i can't seem to control it. sigh.. why. am. i. like. this. ?! you've sent me a clear sign. i got that. mm.. i need to get rid of this feeling. its not nice.. i don't want to feel this way.

2009-08-09T03:59:00.002+08:00

mm.. back from camp. well.. its the first week or 3sir.. O.o life sucks there.. haha i'll definitely get fit if i follow to the training program.. went to NUH today to get some referral letter. i bought NDS just this afternoon? o.o mm.. wanted to try pokemon and some other rpg titles that psp does not offer.. actually my psp is kinda spoilt.. :/ sigh.. and i knew that you blocked me from msn already.. i didn't thought that you would do that.. :/ wow. you love. you said you do not love. and now you hate me.. ): sigh.. you didn't told me that i was talking too much.. you didn't told me things. i can't know what you're thinking.. i cannot understand you anymore ever since.......... haha.. well. i guess its really over now.. but i really still can't forget you.. at least yet. and i really crave for your smell. ! arg. :X haha.. DING. my seargent's name is DING ZHOU. wow. what a surprise. and i start to think about you again when i saw the sign on the floor reading. loaDING and unloaDING. :/ !! lol. that's so stupid! i wish. i could start this all over again.. you gave me this chance before. i just didn't cherish it well.. sorry. ):

2009-07-31T17:40:00.003+08:00

mmm..... i'm posted to 3SIR. in selarang. wow.. its near changi.. and i heard. that.. there.. is alot of stupid people.. !!!! wonder how am i going to communicate with them. Z.. luckily in signals we stay as a platoon before. (: didn't had sleep the last last night. so caught up with rest. 10 hours of sleep! haha.. and guess what.. i dreamt of you again.. another wonderful dream! (: but its kinda weird though.. here goes.. i saw you near the busstop i think. then i was with my usual group of friends. avlin richie they all. and then. you were taking the bus to jp. and we too are intending to go to jp. but i didn't want to take the same bus as you.. maybe because of the awkwardness and fear. but they pulled me into the bus. :/ and there you are sitting 3 sits behind me.. i took a few quick peeps at you. and i realised that i was getting back the feeling i had a few months ago.. i messaged you.. asking you out for dinner afterwards. you were alone.. O.O mm then you didn't reply.. i looked back and give you the 'please' face. haha.. and you gave me this plastic container.. here comes the weird part. inside is filled with japanese seaweed and some tiny carrot sticks. and i somehow decipher that 'message' just like it was a puzzle. reading it in a inward-spiral direction. it says.. "alright.. :/ but i want to have japanese food!" haha.. ya and we went to eat japanese food in jp.. i remembered asking the reason behind you breaking up with me.. and i think it turns out as a misunderstanding and happily ever after.. (: haha.. its WEIRD. :/ but sweet. (: i'm going out with zhanhui and lihe for dinner afterwards.. and i can't wait for aion to be sent to my house! (:

2009-07-28T02:13:00.002+08:00

mmm.... went to watch harry potter again! at lot 1. -_________- they forced me to! haha. i fell asleep for 2 hours. only awake for the last half hour. :X LOL. GG me.. mm......... cookie was bought from minitoons in lot 1! (: COOKIE. ^^ wonder how is cookie..... you used to hug it every night to sleep! :/ think you'd want your orange back.. :/ haha.. and i miss your smell! your BO from your hair! haha.. >< dang. i preordered aion online! and now i have no money in my card. GG.. i don't want to go back to army!!!!

2009-07-25T05:38:00.003+08:00

mm.. i'm think i'm going to get used to army life yea.. but i'm going to be posted into another unit. -_____- so...... :/ gah. really have too much free time.. haha.. most of the time i'll just spend my time sleeping.. o.o sigh. still haven't waste iceage3! haha.. :/ hoho.. sometimes. places i go.. leave traces of your presense.. ! (: and. orange. still has your smell (: haha.. going to lalaland now!. shall go to weihan's party tomorrow(later).. when will ding talk to me again :/

2009-07-21T02:37:00.002+08:00

wow. finally got priston tale 2 online working.. using openvpn and your-freedom software. ^^ bypass ip bans using proxy servers! gah. ingame is hell lagging! using denmark proxy. shouldn't have expected much less latency. dota was. fun? i suppose not. ! went to dinner at pioneer mall.. and there is this girl. who. looks. so. much. like. you.. ! omg. i just can't stop staring :X haha.. ahh. i can't stop missing you? :/ shalln't think so much. O.O draft time! (:

2009-07-20T01:09:00.003+08:00

i think. i'm not the old me anymore. sucks. i need to wake up! O.O jr. is. not. nice. anymore. and. jr. is. EMO. T.T i should find my old self. back. !! mmo. ftw. jay. ftw. and. jr's curiosity! (:

2009-07-20T00:59:00.002+08:00

lol.. slept at 11am and woke up at 9pm! wtf. haha.. got mc till tues. i think 3 times in a row mc. wonder what my officer will say.. haha.. jr needs a new blogskin. O.O hoho. all my friends are in camp now. i think i'll play last in cwr! and. i there is this feeling. in me. that doesn't want to go away!. arg. ding ding ding. BOO.! (: it ok. jr needs a drink!..

2009-07-19T09:10:00.003+08:00

went to social house just now.. haven't slept yet! arg. had a long queue -______- the songs are ggfied. not my type. haha.. butterfac still ftw. (: lol.. going to see the doctor now! and then later sleep! sigh. i forget to take my card at social house! zzz. -______- now must wait for my card to be replaced. ): why am i so forgetful!! -.-

2009-07-18T20:35:00.002+08:00

went to watch harry potter yesterday. luna lovegood has this incredibly high pitch voice.. lol. and it reminds me of you! haha. she's damn cute lah. lol.. (: then latterwards went to dhoby ghaut area to play lan till morning.. i left my red razer copperhead there! GG. ): haha.. luckily i gave you my favourite copperhead! haha.. hopefully it'll remind you of me! haha.. going to club later on? hope i dont fall asleep. i want to get drunk! (: haha..

2009-07-11T11:14:00.004+08:00

book out! haha. jr is happy happy happy. (: i just woke up. and dreamt of you again. lol. :O watched obssessed yesterday! must be that show that made me dreamt of you again! HAHA. <3 <3 <3 !!!!! woots. lol. and its a good dream ok! :D it started off me calling you.. and then you picked up my phone. but hanged up after about 2-3 seconds. lol.. and i text you. you send me a survey text?? lol. and then we started texting. you took up surveying as your job.. surprisingly it paid well? haha.. and then we meet up. started staring and chemical! woots. (: haha.. ((((:

You like my sugar, my sugar.
You so sweet, so sweet.
Like my candy, my candy
You so sweet, so sweet.
I got a good appetite with you on me, on me.
I'll wrap you out of them clothes.
You my treat, my treat.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy And tonight I'm gonna get me some, get me some.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy And tonight I'm gonna get me some, get me some sugar.

woots.. actually i've thought through already. lol.. jr's happy having such memories. (: lol. and i rather be happy dreaming. than dreaming and waking up and feel like losing everything all over again. haha.. jr's. HAPPY.. (: oh. and about that incident on thursday night.. :X i know i shouldn't have called you.. but i just want to hear your voice again! haha.. (: i can't be happier. haha.. (: i love this weekend.. lol. :D maybe later going out to shop for my belt? lol. jr <3s ding. (: off to some breakfast! (:

2009-07-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

lolness. just went to lot1 and eat. its near to my camp.. haha. took bacon aglio and chicken and sausage pasta! woots. my favourites. lol. spammed salt and pepper! lol. you not there to steal away my seasonings! lol. no more ding naggings. ): haha. going book in soon at 11 for guard duty. regemental. SUCKS. lol :/

2009-06-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

GG. i forgot to tell my sgt i'm having mc. he called me and asked why i wasn't there. lol. i could be charged. :/ watched transformers in the afternoon. wow its a 2.5hrs show. fell asleep in the middle.. :X because i had medication earlier on.. don't know why i keep falling asleep in shows. -.- lol.. spent the night learning a new song!.. finally i know how to tune my amp.. (: master of puppets ftw. (: easy to play but hard to play imbal fast! .................. -.- nvm. shall practice more.. (: woots. my baby sg goth is PRETTY. :D need to book in tomorrow night. :/

2009-06-28T02:43:00.002+08:00

ahh. went to eat imm to dine with my family at ichiban.. mm. imbal long time since we dine with you. lol. jr wants to eat gyoza with ding. :/ mm. wanted to went to homefix to get something. but the stuff wasn't the one i wanted so nevermind. going to watch transformers with richie they all.. ahh if you would watch with me i could watch it a billion times again with you. ^^ lol. going to see the doctor tomorrow too.. have sorethroat cough flu fever! GG. :/ you never take care of me! ):

2009-06-26T18:31:00.002+08:00

booked out at 3.00pm! :/ went home. and saw you online.. ahh.. i want to talk to you so much. but i guess i shouldn't be bothering you.. or you'll find me a nuisance.. ): mm. i'm sick.. having cough. flu and sore throat! gah. :/ i'm having lots of admin time.. O.o and all the time i spent was just thinking of you. :/ hohoho.. you just can't get out of my head, can you? why. because i still fucking love you.. (: its a good thing. glad there were beautiful memories.. (:

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from youBurning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I staySo long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

The MV is beautiful! goths. ftw. (: the girl is uber pretty! (: agh. hope you don't mind me still messaging you once in a while.. tried to restraint! but i couldn't! :/

2009-06-21T03:51:00.002+08:00

ahh. i saw lots of your photos at beixin's profile. lol.. (: you're hot as usual. :O lol. gah. the day after we broke up. :/ wow.. i'm really trying to get use to the life without ding. (: trying. haha. trying.. (: we watched 45 shows together! 1st show was kung fu panda.. on 6th june! and last show was detroit metal city.. on 1st april. april's day! :/ haha.. until now its still really hard to believe that you don't have feelings for me anymore lah.. !!!! can't possibly be 1 year and no more feelings suddenly.. or maybe it happened slowly? :/ or maybe.. you've finally thought it hard, for our future.. that i'm not suitable for you.. ya. but what's wrong with me. i swear i can change. :/ haha..

2009-06-19T12:40:00.003+08:00

back from camp! no more going back to tekong for the rest of my life. (: got posted to signals. play with radios? lol. ppppokerfacepppokerface! gah. cannot spam lyrics at you anymore?! haha.. what about you spamming me with odds nonsense! bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bda bad bad bad bad. LIKE I CANNOT SEE HUH! lol. :D transformers 2 is coming out!! ): i bet you're dekaroning your holiday off! >< study a lil yea. (: ding ftw. (:

2009-06-18T03:49:00.002+08:00

ahh. just came home from butter fac. waited imbal long to enter.. !!! ladies night! wtf. didn't really had fun there. its crowded and pushy. wtf. and there are many elephants there? O.O imbal. :O never had a chance to drank much. ): ahh whatever. but the music is cool. (: shouldn't have brought my bomb bag. (: and i'm free from the girls there. ftw. (:

2009-06-17T02:02:00.002+08:00

mm.. had some fun during these few days.. hanged out with my section mates and with some random dudes. ahh.. but hanging out with them isn't the same as hanging with you in the past.. :/ and i found out that things change.. i should move on! but its not easy.. :/ hey hey.. you're getting to know a wrong guy.. he's a beng and is a Normal Tech student.. !! we are smart people. and he's just of another totally different level. if you're just gaming with him then its fine.. tell me you're not hanging out with this guy.. :/ ahh. enough with this guy.. :/ i cannot meddle with your affairs anymore anyway.. :/ mm.. i'm going to jog tomorrow early in the morning with richie and yq i guess. and later on at night going to club with alvin? ha. i'll just drink dead.. and think of you.. (: where's my ding! ):

2009-06-12T18:10:00.002+08:00

didn't sleep last night.. :/ zaviar was dotaing with me whole night. then went over to my house for breakfast. and then more dota.. O.O tired. :/ then we head jp to get a ps3 for zav. he wanted to buy one. O.o we met ee chow. he said he saw you walking past him.. O.O!! and its lunch time! you should be having lunch now.. o.o i wanted to see you so much.. :/ so we went going around looking for you.. but we couldn't find you so we just went pizza hut to eat.. and. we were sitted next to you.. you didn't noticed me at first.. you didn't looked into my eyes.. but i sure did.. you're still the same ding.. just looked abit different.. (: haha.. your nerd fringe is back! (: sigh. but somehow.. i couldn't breathe. its as if a boulder is above me.. so much awkwardness.. you are you. and i'm me. that's how it is.. i doubt i'll be able to eat if i continued to sit there.. you just have this irresistable aura.. i want you so much. but yet. (: i can't.. haha.. i want to look at you again.. i want to look into your eyes.. and wait for you to notice me.. but i couldn't do that anymore.. i left and waited upstairs.. i needed a breather. haha.. you've eaten, leaving and smiling (: you're alright! yea.. i should've known.. haha.. wow. its so hard to eat just next table to you now.. i don't know why.. and i did regreted slightly not giving another glimpse of you before leaving.. ): at least you're smiling! (: home for more guitar! woots. learning 晴天 my first song.. i knew you could play it.. and i love you playing it on the guitar.. i want to hear it again..

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在
ㄖㄨㄟㄙㄡㄙㄡㄒ一ㄉㄡㄒ一
ㄌㄚㄙㄡㄌㄚㄒ一ㄒ一ㄒ一ㄒ一ㄌㄚㄒ一ㄌㄚㄙㄡ
吹着前奏望着天空
我想起花瓣试着掉落
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点
从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

gah. jr misses ding alot! ): !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hopefully. i would see you again.. without you spotting me! :D (: hhahahahhaa.

2009-06-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

hoho.. i pop already! haha.. just didn't feel so glad.. because you weren't there to see me during the parade.. :/ you won't.. haha.. 24 click wasn't so bad.. (: went to sweelee to get myself epiphone sg goth. woots. its. its. its. PRETTY. finally i got mine. can't wait to finish learning a song.. (((: still trying to get use to it.. will get to play some cool solos in a year time ^^ arg. don't know why i keep seeing our images. in shops we used to frequent.. haha.. :/ its sweet though (: dad wants me to go fishing tomorrow.. mm.. maybe i'll be just too lazy.. :/

2009-06-07T13:48:00.004+08:00

its not easy. :/ not easy at all.. !! went to maria's house to ton. with vin and his rvian friends.. O.O lolness. drank abit? only managed to finish half a bottle of absolut while playing card games. (: haha.. and some gin.. woots. can't get drunk ftw.. kz face was red. and maria was drunk!. lol.. wanted more.... sometimes it feels better to go high and not think of anything.. (: lolness. played poker. was losing alot initially.. but won abit in the end.. O.O change of luck.. (: haha.. i saw vin's friends smoking. and got so tempted.. it'll be just nice taking some puffs. haha.. but i knew. if you're there in the past.. you'ld kill me! haha.. so i better not.. (: you hate people who smoke yea.. (: and jr won't.. :D after my pop i shall go guitar shopping. squire ftw. (: haha. someone told me that you're just perfectly fine.. cheerful as ever.. just like in the past.. lol.. maybe its better this way than before.. (: but i still can't stop thinking! :/ ding ding ding ding ding!!!!

2009-06-06T03:41:00.002+08:00

ahh. its a bad bad day. (: haha.. now the truth is starting to hit me again.. :/ maybe i'm just can't get you back. (: haha.. just can't imagine how a nice relationship would end up like this.. :/ not the first time already.. lol. maybe its just me.. hopefully i'll see you in the streets one day.. hopefully i'll still recognise you with the long beautiful hair.. (: the ding i loved is gone. ): gah. ! pain. !!

2009-06-01T12:11:00.002+08:00

ahh.. i dreamt of you again! but it wasn't a good dream this time.. haha :/ just talked to my very good friend.. haha.. i'm feeling better i guess.. (: the truth is. you'll never come back to me.. and i very well know that.. haha.. but i would rather dream of you.. than to let it go.. because you make me smile! (: haha.. lucky i still have orange in my room.. lol.. i hug it to sleep every night without fail.. (: how's cookie? haha.. he still loves you.. he'll take care of you for me! (: heard that you're sick quite often.. take care alright.. you don't drink water!! arg.... don't take milo! or it'll be worse.. hopefully there's still milk in your house.. haha.. i wouldn't be able to get you more of those anymore.. haha.. and don't play till too late yea! (: like you'd read my blog. lol.. maybe i'll appear in your dreams nagging at you. it'll be a nightmare! (: haha.. you know i still love you so much.. !!! haha..

2009-06-01T01:57:00.002+08:00

i know you love me so much last time!!. z. i know you did you did and you did!!. but why.. i just don't understand haha.. fuck. what have i done.. !!! ): i miss you so fucking much.

2009-06-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

i went to the doctor to get mc.. going to book in on tuesday morning.. 7.30 i think.. haha.. sigh. my mind is always occupied by you.. haha.. just had a dream yesterday.. and it goes like this.. you're finally willing to go out with me.. haha.. and we were walking walking walking.. and suddenly. you slipped your hands into mine.. "sorry, lets get back together". how i wished i'm living in that dream now.. having so much happy moments with you.. haha.. maybe i'll be in town.. somewhere in the middle. stoning. and thinking where should we be going.. because i'm a town nerd! and you'll just say "anything.. i don't know.." haha.. ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING! you're so lazy to move your brain cells.. haha.. i used to choose the food you'll be eating.. haha.. you're once. my lazy girl.. (: fuck.

2009-05-31T03:35:00.002+08:00

ahh. i'm back from confinement.. haha.. somehow i didn't really feel unhappy being confined.. maybe there issn't much reason for me to book out.. haha.. i've always wanted to spend my time with you.. i know we don't have much time together.. but now i can't.. :/ gah. going to the cinema seems like a routine thing in the past.. haha.. we watch almost every show!. haha.. if we were at the cinema now.. we'd have watch dance, subaru! and transformers 2 next time.. :/ haha.. you're leading a completely different life from the past now.. haha.. or maybe its just the same.. only without me.. it doesn't make any difference to you, does it? you're just too special. (:

2009-05-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

why do i have to lose the most important thing in my life. !!!! :/ GAH.

2009-05-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

haha. i don't know why.. but i'm feeling sucky now. everything seems heavier to me. sucks. i really don't want to let go.. but can i? haha.. its been forced on me. arg. maybe things really cannot be like the way before.. but i really enjoyed the happy times we spent. (: it was just simply wonderful! (: often at camp, i'ld just thought of them.. and smiled.. (: if you'ld find yourself a good guy, (never better than me.. O.O :D) then i'll just wish you to be happy.. (: ahh. i was told not to be selfish.. but its just hard not to be.. after what we've been through.. all the happy moments we shared. it was geniune. it was lovely. you're my lovely ding. not anymore........

2009-05-17T14:47:00.001+08:00

haha.. ippo even has marionette!.. :/ bleach has it too!. why. :/ BLOOD. !!

2009-05-17T01:10:00.003+08:00

arg. field camp was disgusting. first the 8 clicks. i would have never finished it without calling out your name. the march just sucks. (: oh. and i carve a wooden DING. o.o but. i won't be able to pass it to you anyway.. haha. and who knows, you may just dump it away.. :/

its hard adjusting to the reality. sooner or later i will. perhaps you're going to ignore me till i'm awake. haha.. perhaps all along it was just a one sided thing.. you're just too special. and i'm just an ordinary guy.. maybe i'll just remember the happy times we spent together.. (: it'll just keep me happy.. (:

2009-05-10T03:30:00.000+08:00

haha.. its not easy.. not easy. not easy at all.. (:

2009-05-09T09:37:00.001+08:00

happy birthday.......

it's not a dream. ouch.

2009-05-08T23:48:00.001+08:00

you'll be my one and only.

2009-04-30T22:25:00.004+08:00

lol.. just jogged finish! from my house to dingding house its about 2.6km. and i took 15mins :X lol.. GG. last time i took longer.. O.O LOL. ness. i'm screwed lah. but i'll keep improving! at least i'll run faster if i would take the route to your house! (: haha..

ahh. today just went to town. just walking quite aimlessly. and i'm a town nerd.. went around around to look for something nice for you! but.. can hardly find anything.. :/ i did get something though! :D haha. ahhhhh.. too bad you're not gonna spend your birthday with me.. :/ haha.. abit sad. but....... its fine as long you're happy lah. (: haha..

arg. miss my ding. :/ (: :/ ):!!!!!

2009-04-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

just booked out today! wow. its like prison in there. lol.. the food is yucks. anyway.. i am not suppose to blogged anything about it. oh well. T.T

ahhh.. i just pass my time thinking about you and you and you! (: haha.. and your birthday is coming soon! pressie hunting tomorrow! :D

2009-04-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

i can't be happier. (:

2009-04-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

We started smiling. I was so happy when you first told me that "i'm starting to like you" after you rejected me that night. This was how we started. I try to get to know more about you before deciding whether you're the one for me because i fell for you on first sight. Your cuteness and innocence blew me off. You're straight forward and very nice to everyone. I like this you. After we're together, i got to know the sweetness side of you. You're a different girl. Not like the others. And this is what makes you stands out from the rest. You often make me smile. At times, sad. But after i got to know you better, hey, you're really nice. The past was a memorable one. The future is what i'm eagerly looking forward to. Can i make you happy? Its your call now. I love you.

2009-03-24T10:38:00.003+08:00

hoho.. office office office.. ): hurry up and get over and done with the job! its boring! my term ends next week! and i'll be freer. (:

alevels students should study hard! better start soon.. to nick to denise to everyone taking alevels this year! and DING. D:

ohhh. roller coaster tycoon is fun! but i'm still learning how to play it. :X skipped tutorials! don't like them.

ohh.. i went genting last weekend! it was rather fun.. the weather was. OMFG. @$%& shiok huh. (: chilling chill chill.. its super nice weather there. (: fortunately no rain.. the rides was cool. couldn't enter casino so only can have fun in the theme park! T.T i found the swinging chairs scary!. wtf. ): i only can take cyclone and baby viking.. the rest is .......... FATAL. ggness.

then i went shopping shopping shopping! went around to get pressies and souvenirs! but their shopping centers sucks lahh.. -.- finally found keychains for my collegues and NICE CHOCS for my baby! (: you yayyyy until like that.. lol. ohh.. and i found a companion for COOKIE! went to KL to shop shop and saw SCRUMP! (:

yesterday's challet was uber boring! had nothing to do except stone. so i slept alot.. T.T with clement? :X LOL. BORING CHALLET. BORED BORED BORED!

when can i see you? lol..

2009-02-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

wa. today it seems like i have more time.. lol.. really had nothing much to do.. less calls. more filing.. O.o more time too..

(and ying quan....... your house alot of airplanes flying over.. its so loud in skype.. T.T)

i be happy yea.. haha.. you're nice trying to make me happy. lol.. but then. are you ok? o.o doesn't seem too happy yea.. anyway cheer up alright (:

ohhhh..... and intra school compy is coming soon.. do i get to play in the team much? lol.. shall train harder next few days (:

p.s. i really have nothing much to do during work! so you can message me whenever you're free.. lol..

2009-02-24T14:04:00.002+08:00

ah.. its boring at work.. i had quite alot to do sometimes, but at times there is nothing at all. and i'll be just stoning here.. time just passes so slowly.. and when i've nothing to do, i think of you more.. haha.. hope you're not sleeping in school! O.O must pay attention already.. lol..

i finally got back my harddisk from marcus yesterday! lol.. he looks so skinny and fit now.. (: ohh...... and he said that i grew alot fatter. O.O ding also said so.. O.O omg. lol.. i've been working out abit now! hopefully i won't grow fatter. O.O i'll definitely lose more weight in army! 14th april.. its soon.. and i won't be able to have your company that often already.. :/ hopefully we'll get to hang out more during the next few weeks! (:

wondering what you're doing now.. lol.. playing? sleeping? munching? O.O haha.. oh.. and my results for the a's are coming out real soon.. somewhere in early march.. perhaps 6th of march.. o.o hopefully i won't fail gp.. i have confidence in the rest (:

gah. can't stop thinking of you yea.. shoo go away.. haha..

let's go out tomorrow! (:

2009-02-16T10:34:00.001+08:00

I'm thinking of you.. misses you.. badly..

2009-01-23T11:35:00.005+08:00

okok.. i'll blog!

i'm now sitting in my office, having not much to do.. abit of introduction.. i'm working for UIC Computer.. I know you must be thinking i'm working in some detergent company (the oldie UIC oHHHH UIC advertisement huh. T.T) oh.. and i'm working at the helpdesk- logging calls and assigning fault calls to the technicians.. and there's nothing much to do luhh. so most of the time i'll be just surfing the net or checking out pc stuffs in the inhouse.. :D

and the reason why i'm working is that........ i find it time-wasting to stay at home to game for another 3 months.. might as well just find a job, earn some money and get something i like (:
and the thing i'm gonna get is a nice gaming rig. :D

3k is enough to get a monster rig (without monitor).. hope my daddy gets it for me :O
yaaaaa........ and i'm not going to get the 32" Samsung Series 6 HDTV already.. Baby said its TOO BIG. lol. and agree la..... its too straining for the eyes.. ): haha.. so i think i'll go get T240 or T260 instead.. I prefer T260 though.. but i scared it'll be too big since my table is so narrow (about slight more than hand-elbow width).. T.T

yea i'm going into army soon ): so there isn't any point in getting a desktop? o.o maybe just casual gaming and i want to try building a rig from scratch.. never done that before so i'm curious! :D and if i don't get to play often my brother can use that monster :D so i'm planning to get it after my 2nd pay which will be early march.. and the other 1k borrowed from my mummy.. leaving me another 1 month to game at night.. (:

enough of computers! T.T

hoho. movies time! love matters is funnnnyyyyyyyy. lol.. as usual. neo's film has something to learn at the end of every movie.. 3.7/4! (: one of the worse of all neo's film though..

ahh.. everyday is work and i can hardly find time for my ding.. ): hope we can spend more time during this coming holiday yea! (: haha.. and join my renunion dinner luhhhhhh.. not scary one. promise! (: haha.. hope to see auxilion's opening ceremony (: i visited blog and realise that gary is crazy over richie. LOL.. richie you have a fan :D maybe i'll crash school during that day since i'm not working :D

my holiday was an enjoyable one.. especially on christmas with my baby in HK! (: love you..

2008-10-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

everyday is going to the library and studying.. i have to wake up early and reach the library well before 10. to make sure that i am there before the door opens.. if not i wouldn't be able to get a seat.. i go to the library because i cannot study at home.. ): and this is killing me.. i have to study for another 2 more weeks. and probably another 2 more. i hate this.. and i can't seem to remember everything.. T.T

ahh. i'm longing for your company.. ahh. yes spiritually now. hoho. you're in camp! :/ well.......
begone! exams..

keith just christain-ed me.. oh yes.. i love god for bringing Lucifer to earth (:

"And to the angel of the church [ekklesia] in Pergamos write; These things saith he which hath the sharp sword with two edges; "I know thy works, and where thou dwell, even where Satan's seat is: and thou holdest fast my name, and hast not denied my faith, even in those days wherein Antipas was my faithful martyr, who was slain among you, where Satan dwells." "

Turkey house the Lord of the Air.

HA. :D

i want to watch .REC
but it opens on 30th october. like 4 days before my first a level paper. T.T
miss my baby. T.T

2008-10-04T13:07:00.002+08:00

ohh. its been some time since i blogged. well, life's normal with the a's coming.. i shall blog again after my a's (:

and DEKARON. is beautiful.. It has HUGE maps. :O DEKARON SEA ftw. (:

I CANNOT PLAY DEKARON. CAN I? :D

2008-09-25T22:39:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry. i love you.

2008-09-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

ahh. i'm so busy this week. i can't even get a proper rest.

i've finally get back all my results.

GP. 43%
Econs. 50%
Maths. 63%
Physcis. 48%
Chemistry. 40%

as you can see. i failed GP. failed 2 h2. passed 1. OH MY SHEN. i must start mugging hard already?

but. i just can't seem to study. everytime i flip open the papers. all i think was my comfy bed. :D WOOTS. then after i slept. i don't have the mood to start doing papers already. ): arg. i don't like studying. HA. nevermind. BLEACH shall cure me (:

I want to spend time with my baby. ): BOO.

Oh. i'm going to prom in the end i think.. hate to shop for prom stuffs. its going to be hard. lucky ding doesn't need to perform (: it'll be tiring! (:

BLEACH 187 TIME. WOOTS. screw studies. FOR NOW. (:

2008-09-07T23:36:00.004+08:00

ahh. i'm back back home. haha. it's been a long day.

oh. went to suntec to shop for clothes! HAHA. nothing much there. went to cj xiao long bao to eat lunch. lol. i'm broke. GG. then went to levis store. saw promotion. 2 bottom + 1 top. = $99. lol. SO CHEAP? i thought 1 bottom $139/$169. HAHA. then we saw it was signature series. must be the cheap ones. lol. don't want buy those jeans la. later kena laughed no money buy red tab one. :D HAHA. so malu. :D ohhhh. but i'm broke anyway. so cannot be choosy. :D

ah. next stop was marina bay. they had some basketball event there.. 5 girls from america came to singapore for cheerleading! omg. they are. HOT HOT HOT. :D *drools* haha. they can dunk too! of course with a trampoline. (:

oh. got a berms from RECOIL. LOL. NO BRAND ONE. I KNOW. HAHA. but i poor. no choice. woots. saw a nice white tie at 4skins. woots. but. i scared i won't wear it. so better not buy it first. LOL. other nice nice nice shirts in revoltage. but will i wear them? LOL. :D oh. after that. it was quite la. and i was lazy to go all the way back to jurong west. omg. just to cut my hair. haha. my 8pm appointment! :O i cancelled it and looked for a salon in marina bay. lol. the only shop left open was kimage prestige. haha. i'm too broke to spend $45 on my hair! HAHA. nvm. at least it doesn't look too crappy. (:

oh. i'm so happy today. (: my dad got a new lappy battery for me! woots. it cost $390. OMG. lol. they say its lifespan is 1.5-2 years. haha. GG la. so expensive. lol. nevermind. its his money! :D

2008-09-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired. HAHA.

yesterday i went to tampines with baby. :D woots. its far. but singapore is so small (: haha. oh. i saw her GMS school. its. lol? i just know that GMS primary is COLOURFUL. :D oh oh. someone cannot go to LIBRARIES! :D HAHA. ohhhh. watched starwars. arg. i was too tired. so the movie doesn't seem interesting at all. its boring me. :D HAHA. bought 2 DOGGIE bank (: my black Dog is named Bebi- (: haha. and her Grey Dog is named Koishii. (: THEY ARE CUTE. HAHA. :D oh. mine has a leather jacket (: its cool. ahh. you can have mine if you want! (: oh and.. they are avenues to make coins DISAPPEAR. (: woo. i had fun! :D though i'm tired. BUT FUN! :D

TODAY. imbal. ding sat down. and did a 5-hour essay. wow. DISCIPLINED. not bad. :D yea. and when she went to jp. she keep on bullying JAY CHOU. OMG. ok. i shall not say anymore. ARG. T.T and and. i didn't let you eat your tom yum because you were sick. ): don't be mad! (: you can eat all you want after you're all better (: OH MY POOR JAY ARG. nvm nvm. T.T JAY. OMG. nvm. ): ARG. (: ARG. (: ahh. ohhhhh. watched make it happen today. woots. it sucks (: gg. no nice moves. no pretty girls. no hot guys. no climax. no PLOT. GG. (:

love you, i do. (: a thousand apologies! i didn't mean't to overslept today! IT WAS MY PM/AM MESS. SHIT. :D